A few weeks ago I was given a task, which my Sir had planned for me since I became his.
I have to put on make up and nice clothes, jeans and high heels, go outside and piss myself. At least 15 people should be around to see it.
I think about a week ago Sir told me that I should set a date and I named him a few days in the end of the month.
Last night, as I was laying in bed, not able to fall asleep, and thinking about Friday I realised that today is a good day as well.
So, in the afternoon, after work, I got home, had some lunch and a lot of water and drove off to a town near by.
I walked around a bit and saw the first problem. There were no 15 people around.
I walked around a bit more and decided to do it anyway.
I just kept thinking about how happy my Sir will be when I complete the task. On the other hand, of course, I was scared.
I was standing there with a full bladder and realised a different problem.
It isn’t as easy as it sounds to stay there and let go. It’s a barrier in the head. When we are little kids our parents train us to use the bathroom and it takes a lot of work to overcome yourself.
Well, as you all figured, I didn’t do it.
But I don’t think I failed. I see it more as a dry run. I now know on what I have to work.
And even more important. I understood that I can and will do it.
I know how hard peeing in public can be .. *HUGS* you tried and at least got to the point of being somewhere that you were willing to do it as well as gave it an honest effort. I know from experience that sometimes you just cant pee even when you really need to.