I know I’ve been very bitter last Sunday and again I want to apologise to all of you, on Twitter.
I really want to try to get better.
I thought I’d share a little something about me with you.
I was, am and always will be a very emotional person. After some events in my life it got worse. Now, if I simply watch a sweet commercial, I get tears in my eyes. (One of the reasons I don’t watch regular tv.)
I can read a lovely story again and again. And it will give me goosebumbs every single time.
I even start cry when someone says something nice about me. This all doesn’t sound too bad, does it?
Well, the downside is that I also cry when I’m angry, when I’m sad, when I’m arguing, when I’m tired.
I cannot control it and I know it is very annoying. I would stop it if I could. But if I try to hold it in then I know it’ll find a way out.
I found that being emotional can be good in some ways. It allows me to understand people. To feel them. I like to believe that it’s the reason why I can be a great friend and a person people turn to when they need help or just someone who listens.
But it also makes me develop feelings for people very fast. I learned to control it, but it doesn’t always work.
This combined with being an attention whore can be hard, frustrating and lead to tears and pain.
It sometimes makes me act like a silly teenager and I hate it.
I try to fight it as much as possible, but sometimes I don’t have enough strength.
So, consider yourself warned 😉