I am a better person today than I was yesterday. And yesterday I was a better person than I was the day before. I like to think that I learn from every experience, from every day, from every person who comes into my life – no matter how long they stay. There are people who forced me to grow, helped me to be better, were there when I became who I am today.
First I thought about including ALL the people who played a role in making me the person I am. But then I decided to simply stick to D/s – I’m sure my parents would appreciate that.
He was my first. Dom that is. Through him I learnt that the things I craved had names. My fantasies weren’t weird. I was lucky to have met him, even if he could not give me what I really needed. But he introduced me to quite a few things and all that in a safe setting. He was also the one to introduce me to Twitter and through that to the bloging world.
I know I am a submissive and little one, because of Paul. (Couple other things as well.)
Although it never was D/s, more friends with benefits – or better yet, benefits with a bit of friendship. But I will always be grateful to him for explaining “sub drop” to me. None of the men before him did. And many after him also couldn´t understand the concept.
I could´ve singled out any other man for this post, but for me understanding the “sub drop” was such a huge, important thing, that it makes him special.
I am more kind to myself and understand myself better, because of David.
All the many, many men I’ve been with
I will not even try to count the men. But as I said before many times, I learnt from any encounter I had. Sometimes it were things about me and my submission. In other times it were new limits. And every now and then it was understanding what I can and cannot tolerate.
I am more experienced, because of the men I´ve been with.
My Twitter friends
Oh, I am so thankful for my wonderful Twitter friends. Throughout the years, there were so many talks, communications, discussions. A few I even met offline. With a few others I exchanged long emails. And a bunch I simply admired from afar and learnt. They helped Lillith become an actual, real part of me.
I am Lillith, because of my Twitter friends.
There always be a special place for him in my heart and my mind. He was exactly what I needed at that time and maybe even before. He showed me a D/s, which I had never thought I would be lucky enough to experience. The deep connection, the exchanges, the bonding we had was what I needed. Our time made me see that it is ok to want and need the things I want and need.
I am happier, because of the Captain.
He is teaching me that D/s and romance, beatings and mushiness, strictness and love are connected. He accepts all my weirdness and makes me feel perfect. My needs don´t scare him away, but feed his needs.
I am whole, because I am his.