About a week ago my blog turned 10. I didn’t realise it until a few days later, but I was busy with other things. One thing I did though, I went back to my first post. It was very short and I named it “Why blog?” Looking at it now: It was uncategorised, it had no pic, nothing. But it got me started and that was the point. I had been around on Twitter back then for a while. I had connected to people and started to find my way into BDSM and learning about that and myself. I remember asking my followers of a way to use more than 140 characters – those were the days. One of the suggestions was blogging and it took me some time to decide whether to really do it.
Obviously I did. I created a blog, Im pretty sure some of followers helped me. And at the end of March 2011 Lillith Masala had a blog.
As I said, I went back and read my first post. I also read a few that followed and what can I say? Things changed over time. The men definitely did. But I want to say that my English improved. Reading some of the stories and thoughts also hurt me. Not that I’m free of typos and mistakes, but I’m doing better.
I changed to. And the blog is a great way for me to see that changed. Ideas I had back then have evolved or disappeared, because I understood that it’s not for me. I also noticed that I wrote more stories than I do now. I decided that is because back then mayn of my desires and fantasies had no way of coming to life.
I had started the blog a couple of weeks after breaking up with my first dom, who lived in the UK. And many of those to follow were all LDR. Most of them I never met and for a long time, all I had, were my fantasies and the only way to live them out was through writing stories, wishing they would come true one day.
That was the reason to blog, to get all the thoughts in my head out on paper, so to speak. Writing has always helped me sort my thoughts and see what I might not have been able to see.
When I paused with d/s and Twitter, I also paused with the blog. There was nothing to write about. So it’s technically true that I had the blog for 10 years now, but there are some gaps.
As we all know, I came back. I came back to Twitter, to d/s to my blog. And in December 2019 Lillith Masala got renamed and in January the blog received a very much needed make over.
Today I look back on the past 10 years and I know that it’s the result of more than 10 years. This blog is a bit of a diary, a bit of a way for me to not keep things in, and a way to communicate.
I love participating the prompts, but I also am ok with taking a break every now and then. Not all days are made for writing and I am ok with that. Understanding this has been a long way for me, but I got there.
I’m proud of my blog. Not that it’s extraordinary or has something other blogs don’t have, but it’s me. It is a part of me and especially a part of my d/s.
Yes, I write less stories, very few really, but that is because I finally get to live so many of my fantasies and ideas. A lot of the thoughts I would’ve used my blog for in the past, I discuss with Michael and don’t need to write it down in order to realise what I fell or think. Yet, there are plenty of ideas to fill posts on here and I can’t wait to look back in 10 years and realise the road I took, where I started and what I experienced.