I have been talking to a friend. We were catching up and I learnt some interesting things about him and his life. We were talking about love life and such affairs and he told me about a relationship he had. During this conversation I made a joke about his choices. To which he relied how he’s ashamed.
Right away I made clear that I didn’t mean it that way. It was clear though that he is very much ashamed. About what he did, how he handled a situation, but also he was ashamed about the relationship he was in and especially about the person.
This got me thinking. We all have something we regret. I know I have. There are plenty things I regret. Some things are small, others are bigger.
I regret agreeing to be with certain doms, who weren’t good for me – or anyone else.
I regret not fighting for relationships.
I regret doing things I didn’t want to.
I regret not speaking up.
I regret sleeping with men I shouldn’t have.
I regret not taking chances.
I regret things I said or didn’t say.
I regret not taking a stand when I should’ve.
I regret opening up to people I shouldn’t have.
I regret not walking away when I had the chance.
I regret so many things.
With all those regrets, I also know that I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I wouldn’t be in the place I am now. I would not have achieved the things I have achieved.
Yes, I have stood in my way sometimes, but I like to think I learnt from it. There is no reason to dwell in bygones and obsess about things I can’t change. All that happened, happened. I simply can hope to learn a lesson from it, work through it, and not repeat the same mistakes.